Finally Free

wow...

Lately I've made a lot of big decisions regarding my life that I thought I'd regret, but I actually don't. I'm doing fairly well right now. My emotional state hasn't exactly changed, but I guess I try not to think about all things depressing too much anymore. I've met some new people at my church and they're definitely assisting in going on day by day.

I've decided that in two years when I turn eighteen I'm definitely getting out of here. I don't currently have anyone to hold me back so unless that changes I'll be gone. I'm not sure where exactly I'll go. Used to I would have said Princeton but now I'm not really set on what exactly life holds for me after high school . I just know that I'm always going to be traveling all over the world. I don't think I'll ever stay in one place for very long. A year at most. Unless something dramatic happens that ties me down to a place.

I used to always be looking for a boyfriend or wish that I had one, but now I've realized that I really don't need one. I'm not looking for one at all anymore. I don't want to be like these girls that settle down with their high school sweethearts and stay in Tennessee all their lives. I don't want to have someone to hold me back. I want to go everywhere and experience everything I can. So that way when I get old and am nearing death I can say that I've truly lived life to the fullest.

I might date occassionally but I'm not looking for anyone or planning on settling down unless God just straight up throws someone at me; right in my face; like an undeniable sign. And if he does they better be able to keep up with me...lol...My honest opinion is that women don't really need men for anything. We're very capable all on our own.

I think through all my recent and past experiences I've discovered something to truly look forward to and be happy about, and that's living.

Just experiencing all you can while you can.