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I realized that I'm the type of person who cries at the end of happy romance movies. There's a deeper meaning behind that statement, but I don't think this blog is the place to explain it.

A friend told me I should blog, so here it is.

I guess a lot has happened. Last summer I went to UT for a bit and there was some conflict, so long story short, I don't attend UT anymore. Then I went to South College for a while. Now I don't go there either. Some family issues came up and I'm not able to be in school right now. It is what it is I guess. Now, I work most of the time...

The real reason I don't write on here anymore is because I always write about something new that "i'm sure will work out" and then it doesn't...So I got tired of trying to predict my future, and I shouldn't be trying to. I just have to leave it up to God.

As far as relationships go, when you rush right into something you'll rush right back out. Someone told me that I have flavors of the month and that's true in a way. I always jumped from one relationship to the next without ever really getting to know someone. I never took a break and just enjoyed a friendship.

News Flash

What is going on? Is this for real?

Yea, apparently this is the real deal.

So, this blog is about another guy, but this one is definitely worth mentioning.

I met the most amazing guy ever about a month ago. He's pretty much everything I didn't know I was looking for.

When he first started talking to me I definitely didn't think much about him. He was just the guy that I didn't really want to talk to....yea...I was wrong.

After about a week I began to realize how great he is. He has a fantastic personality and just overall makes me happy. I just can't describe the way he makes me feel. It's almost overwhelming. I feel really blessed to have found someone like this.

Now that I've said all my mushy stuff, I've got to be realistic. I'm concerned about this one. I mean, I'm feeling a lot really fast. So if this one ends badly...eeesh.

What the heck?

well...

I don't really see the point in blogging anymore since I'm the only one who reads mine....

I guess it was always just for my own benefit...even though I'm not entirely sure what I benefit from this.

The summer is over and now it's back to school time. YAY. I'm attending South College and this general education classes are way beyond dull.

Other than that I don't really know what to say.

I don't really talk to many people at school, I guess that's because making friends isn't really my thing...

My best friend moved away so I don't get to see her much.

We haven't found a new church yet but I hope we do soon.

All I really do in my alone time is chill. I should really start running again. That was a good hobby.

I don't have anything good to read anymore.

We went to see The Help the other day and it was fabulous. It makes you cry and laugh at the same time.

Getting a social life hasn't really ever been a priority of mine, especially not now that I'm in college. I'm realizing now that I don't recall ever having much of a social life.

OH WELL

I enjoy my time for the most part. I read a lot of science fiction.

This is really lame....

Time to make a change

Goodness! Things are so different now, but so much similar at the same time.

I have been living on UT campus for a while and taking summer classes...It would have all been great if not for the constant drama. Every time I get away from one mess another one appears, or maybe it's just the same mess following me around...Oh well, I'm through with that for good.

I've run into several obstacles this summer, but I don't intend to let them slow me down. Time to shed the hurt and move on for good.

Classes are really stressing me out, especially Sports Writing. I really have no interest in sports, so I don't know much about them. The only really good thing that has come from this class is me realizing that I really LOVE Roller Derby.

I just have to keep in mind that these classes and these people don't really matter because in the fall I will be doing my best to get a fresh start and dispose of all past troubles.

Some people this summer have been good friends and I'm thankful for that, but I think it's time for me to start pulling away from the pack.

Keep it Up

I finally graduated last saturday It wasn't that great, especially when I lost a shoe walking in, but atleast I made it. Now I start college on Tuesday. I'm finally starting to get things together. I've even some better ideas of what I want to do with my life. Hopefully it will all work out.

Life at home still isn't that good, and it's kind of getting worse. I just don't know what to do anymore that won't make her angry. I guess just keep praying about it.

Unfortunately my main ways of dealing with stress are keeping it to myself and trying to forget, or sometimes venting a bit to a close friend. Next thursday my best friend is moving away. I don't know how to deal with that....It stinks when people leave, but I guess that's just part of growing up.

There's been a lot to think about lately: friends, family, college, stresses, especially certain stresses. I talk to God about it, and He helps. Sometimes it's nice to vent to another person and hear their advice.

Oh well, just keep praying and trust God to work things out.

Dreams Do Come True

It's hard to believe that graduation is here already. It has been a long thirteen years. I am so excited and ready to start life. Tomorrow is the last full day of high school, but I have the feeling it is gonna be rough. It seems like I haven't accomplished much in my life so far, but when I think about it I really have. I've made it through school with good grades, been in great extracurricular programs, got in to great colleges, and had some fun. . . I will miss it though.

I have got some things figured out for the future: I am going to attend UT and then move to Hawaii.

There are still some things I'm not sure about: What to major in, what career to chose, what to do with my personal life, what to give up and what to keep....

In need of some guidance.